July 28th, 2010
28.07.2010 - 28.07.2010 36 °C
In exactly one week, I'll be flying back home. Right now, I'm torn between counting down the days and wanting to delay the departure. I know I'm making the right decision to leave now. I'm feeling happier now than I have in the last couple of weeks. I'm happy to be free from apathetic teenagers and manipulative toddlers, from all the paperwork and last minute requests. I can't wait to see Mike, whom I haven't seen in over 6 months, and my parents. I'm already salivating at the thought of French food.
At the same time, I don't feel ready to leave! In the last few weeks, taking private lessons from my colleague's husband, I've made an enormous breakthrough in Chinese. He's made it more relevant and exciting than any other teacher I've had! Sure, I still can't name all the vegetables I want on my Subway sandwich, but I can say "I think, I prefer, I agree". Now I know how to give my opinion!!! I've also started to bond with my new colleagues and with the wonderful Gabriella, a lovely Chinese student who assists in the small kid classes.
And I'm also reluctant to part with my comfortable, easy lifestyle! I'll miss the fun extracurriculars: karaoke, visiting, shopping. The affordable transportation, food and housing. Not having to live paycheck to paycheck and being able to financially weather the unexpected. I'll have to scale down my expectations back home. I know I'll be comparing costs with the ones here. What? That hole in the wall is worth how much? why should I pay an arm and a leg for this sub-par public transport that goes on strike 6 months out of the year, doesn't have AC and cherry on top, is dirty? In China, I only paid....
That being said, money or no money, I'll strive to live my life in France how I lived it here in China: devoting my off time to friends, volunteering, regular exercise and studying Chinese!